| oh xanga, you are ridiculous. |
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| i'm doing a painting series about baggage, and how shitty and heavy it is, and today i was online and was suddenly smacked across the head with the baggage i already have to deal with to a slight degree everyday. i just want to be able to let it go. there are absolutely no more feelings there, finally, but still mis-trust, fear, and pain ...and it sucks.
i want to be able to just let it go. bleh. |
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| fuck.
can somebody please just write a fucking perfect book outlining when you have the "right" or whatever to expect certain things in a relationship? i mean jesus, at this 'time of the month' it is all i can fucking do to be rational about day-to-day things... i do not have the capability to think about whether or not what i am expecting from my boyfriend is fair or not.
ugh! aoidjf;asklejre :( |
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| no matter what i do or how i try to think about it, i still don't like it. lame. |
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